Hmm. I thought the atmosphere here is going well,peaceful,and good. O Allah,do i have to increase my maturity to enable myself to read the grown-up situation well?
I am not so worried about how am i gonna cope with this situation of my very very ehem family. Lantak doranglah,that's not my bussiness. 'House' here means my grandpa's house. O Allah,if he really wants to stick with his plan of allowing people to rent two rooms of this house,i am afraid that i might be forced to live at the hostel. Again. After what had happened to me before,i swear that i don't wanna bear with any trouble that related to HOSTEL. Oh puh-lees, i rather stay at the hotel (if i have a lotta money) than getting myself stay at the hostel next year. I admit this and i swear that
I cannot forgive myself until forever if fail my SPM.
Aisy tolonglah,aku x mo lagi tinggal asrama. Cukup cukup lah 3 tahun lebih aku hampir jadi gila. Almost went bonkers.
Aku pernah x makan 3 hari time semua orang pulang kampung,and i got berkulat macam cendawan di asrama. Aku pernah tidur lewat sebab i had to finish my laundry yang hari hari x pernah x ada tu. Macam macam lagilah annoying things yang buat aku menyampah tiap kali aku ingat balik. Tu belum lagi pasal gotong royong selepas kelas prep. Part tu memang aku despise berabis tu.
Today,i went to Sandakan just to get myself buying stationery,and of course,a cute diary book because yeah,next year i am not gonna use phone. I saw many people wore the maroon colour. Haha,aku ni kalau warna merah lembayung memang sensitif sikit. X sah tu kalau aku x tengok kali kedua kalau ada orang pakai warna maroon. I saw a young lady wore the maroon shawl. I also saw a mother wore the maroon dress with dokoh pattern. Ya ampun,Allah sajalah yang tahu berapa lama i stared at her,kept praising her dress.
Apa apa pun,i have to face 2017 as strong as i can. As matured as i have to. As smart as i should to be. Hmm. I have to study hard(in shaa Allah hehe)for the sake of SPM. Ni kali aku concerned a bit lah kiranya.
' Why are you forcing yourself? Relax Amy. You are not that kinda people before. '
' Because i cannot forgive myself until forever if i fail my SPM. '
Ceh.
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