Mimpi

Hehe. I have just done my subh prayer,only after i heard Pa's voice asking us to wake up. Hmm. Memetik kata kata klate kawan aku,parook.

Before i woke up kan,i was stil dreaming. Bah,lainnya perasaan aku. Kalau aku kira kan,mimpi kali ni adalah mimpi yang kedua aku lawan cakap mama. Aduii. Dahlah dalam mimpi tadi tu aku ada cakap pasal SPMlah,jangan samakan aku dengan si Wana lah(haha kenapa si Wana boleh termasuk dalam mimpi aku ni,banyak artis Malaysia ada termasuk dalam mimpi aku tadi). Pastu mama aku x mo tengok muka aku lagi.

Allah. Please.
I am trying to love Ma' after the matured concersation we had on kemarin kemarin dulu punya evening. We cried together. I know so well that after all of this time she has been going through a lot in her life. And her story makes me hate the idea of marriage. I didn't notice that many lelaki tak guna sebenarnya wujud around me. No,no matter what happens,I WILL NOT GET MARRIED. If i get married,that means i am no longer free,i have to follow my husband's order,x boleh bertindak sesuka hati,and i don't like that. It feels like an opression.

I wanna have a better life after this. I wanna take care of my parents and let them not feeling sad or disenchanted or disappointed or apa apalah perasaan tu. I wanna tebus balik semua kesalahan i have ever done. Cukuplah selama 16 aku hidup ni aku x pernah minta maaf dengan dorang,sincerely.

Ok bai.